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Emo Quiz *cough* Jenny :) [23 Jan 2004|01:00am]

take the emo quiz
.created by jessi
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This is really cool! [15 Jan 2004|09:42pm]
LiveJournal Haiku!
Your name:octajo
Your haiku:themselves out but i
probably wont because i
have strep throat and it
Created by Grahame
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This is really cool! [15 Jan 2004|09:42pm]
LiveJournal Haiku!
Your name:octajo
Your haiku:themselves out but i
probably wont because i
have strep throat and it
Created by Grahame
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[08 Dec 2003|09:00pm]
Okay this is for business purposes only:

Eden deadline is this Friday! We really wanna get your writing and artwork (gotta be uhhh... school appropriate though) I know some of you want to but if you're like me you keep on forgetting to get around to it. So yeah... anyone... Heather, Jenna Jo, Rachele, Sofia, Britani. Put stuff in the Eden box in the library or even email it to me if you want BigAppl212@aol.com.
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[19 Oct 2003|11:02pm]
This livejournal is over. I'm not crying and I haven't been. If anything is important enough to say it will be said some other way. I still wouldn't wish for anyone to have to hear the things i have. Even the girl who while sitting in my car said "ewww thats gross" when i hugged my boyfriend at the time. If you don't like me the way I am just leave me alone. And talking about the past wont really do much good now. I am not saying that everyone has to like me although i do like everyone. But no one can tell me "everyone thinks you do this" because only God could ever know that.

As for everyone not involved in this or something similar. I wish you a good life.
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the sweetness will not be concerned with me [17 Oct 2003|01:32pm]
I hate being sick. I felt so depressed today for like no reason. Lately I've been feeling like I'm waiting for something to happen, but I don't know what. I just really really dont know what i want.

We had the pep rally today and I got so annoyed because a bunch of guys were yelling out mean stuff so I got up and I sat with ryan quinn and we talked about random stuff and ignored everything. that was fun. and i got to talk to dan for a few minutes after.

I kinda want to go to Homecoming cuz it would be like old times... not that id want to go back but for 1 night sure why not. But I probably wont because i have a lot more reason not too since I dont get out of work til 8, im in a really bad mood, and i dont know if any of my friends are going.

sigh. its like heather said i wish i could just take out my brain for a while and clean it before i put it back. I am just so confused to the point where i seriously dont even know what im confused about.
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i dont think of you like i used to do i cant think of who i am writing this to [15 Oct 2003|09:55pm]

A moment of silence
Before this falls apart
A moment of flames
Before it all goes dark

A moment of restlessness
Before I fall asleep
A moment of shallowness
Before we're in too deep

A moment of emptiness
Before you're even gone
A moment of hesitation
Before you move on

A moment of affection
Before you break my heart
A moment of stopping
Before we even start
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[15 Oct 2003|08:54pm]
I don't really feel like writing much but I think everything turned out okay today when I realized that I have my own personal birthday song. helll yah.

Thanks Jenna Jo (and Maureen) for like singing to me in the hall :D And Rachel for sending me a card online and for even knowing that it was my bday yay!
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i dont want a test i want to believe dont wanna hear a spokesman [07 Oct 2003|09:19pm]
1) I'm almost 18!! Wednesday October 15 to be exact. When I turned 17 I was pretty much like "whatever" speaking of whatever "this is MY united states of whatever!" But... 18. Practically speaking that doesnt mean very much because I'm still in high school but it means that I will be an adult. me.

2)I heard on HOT 93.7 (lol) this morning that last week was the first time ever that all top 10 songs were by African-American artists. WOW!!! isnt that interesting?

3) Question- anyone whos worked in a grocery store: Is it just me or do you hate being Express?
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[18 Sep 2003|03:38pm]
I have a new s/n. It's: ididntknowwhy
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[02 Sep 2003|01:06pm]
I don't feel well. I'm so light-headed. I have like no energy for anything.
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some del amitri lyrics [31 Aug 2003|11:55pm]
Summer here is over in a million different ways
You look like a dream sometimes, but I don't dream these days...

'Cos you can find yourself a lover
You can find yourself a home
You can want no other ever
But it's never too late to be alone
oh no no
its never
too late
to be alone
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[31 Aug 2003|11:34am]
UGH The Things They Carried makes me sick!

<td bgcolor="#000000">Your band name is:</td><td bgcolor="#DDDDAA">My Bleeding Skin</td></tr><td bgcolor="#000000">You sound like:</td><td bgcolor="#DDDDAA">The Weakerthans</td></tr><td bgcolor="#000000">You will be signed to:</td><td bgcolor="#DDDDAA">Drive-Thru Records</td></tr><td bgcolor="#000000">Your emo lyrics are:</td><td bgcolor="#DDDDAA">"My smile decays as days slowly soak away from yesterday"</td></tr><td bgcolor="#000000">Username:</td><td bgcolor="#DDDDAA"></td></tr>
What is your emo band name? by spiralinghalo
Created with quill18's MemeGen!
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[30 Aug 2003|05:32pm]
"i do it for the druuugs!"

I've had this song stuck in my head which is kinda funny cuz i havent heard it in a while and i dont do drugs.

Thursday I went to the mall with Dan. We picked up my senior pics and I got Rachele a bracelet at Claire's and those happy bunny cookies at hot topic. i dont really like happy bunny but I liked the saying on this one. And he wanted to look at some video games and i dont like many video game but I saw one that looked really cool called "the partners" which is kind of like the sims only i like it better cuz u have missions and stuff. And I thought it was gonna cost more but it was on sale for $5! I played it for a few hours after i got home. Oh yeah and we saw these really cute cards at Spencers of all places. check it out, they're mostly really cheesy though except the one that says "when im with you" i think (?) and talks about sitting under the stars and stuff.

Yesterday I went back to work for the first time since vacation and so i got a little mixed up at times. But it was cool cuz it really cleared my mind. I think that was the first time that no one i know came through my line all day but then again today if i remember correctly. hehe but there was a guy in line with the same last name as crystal on his card but i didnt say anything to him cuz i didnt wanna like scare him or anything.

Then after work I went to Rachele's get together and that was fun :) The people there were me, rachele, brittani, joey d., ali (sp?), ashley, norman, david n., and riley and his friend charlie i think. It's kinda hard to remember because people came and left at different times. HAHA Riley's friend was like "im not a stoner" and then 10 minutes later we're talking about something totally different and he was like "im NOT a stoner." We were like you're not helping your case there. Joey bleached his hair and it looks really good. bleached hair :) And he's going to our school this year yay! A bunch of people watched a movie called "i'm with lucy" and I started watching it and i thought it looked really good but I decided I'd rather hang out outside. Seemed like a really good breakup movie cuz in the beginning she's with this guy and she's saying how theyll be together forever then he breaks up with her in a crowded elevator and says something how like the sex is boring. And he's like I would have told you sooner but i didnt want to embarrass you. LOL. he seemed like a loser anyway. I would never laugh if that happened in real life but seeing it in the movie was great, so satisfying.

Wow seems like I wrote a lot. And now I'm gonna go get ready to pick up Heather and go to Friendly's yay! hehe i've been listening to the chorus concert CD today and now I have in my head the song with Nick's solo i dunno what its called i love listening to it though. I'm really tired but obviously it's too early to sleep. I don't want to sleep anyway, i havent hung out with heather in a long time or seen crystal.
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oxygen [27 Aug 2003|09:39pm]
3 entries in a day might as well make it 4. I talked to Rachele for a while and that made me feel so much better. yay
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[27 Aug 2003|07:18pm]
[ mood | lonely ]

I'm thinking it would be nice to have someone to talk to right now. That's not really fair though, I'm talking to Eric. That's just plain funny, out of all people... But really I do have people to talk to I just don't think any of them that I feel comfortable talking about what I'm thinking at this exact moment. But that doesn't matter so much because time will solve this. I guess I think whatever's meant to be will happen. Sometimes I think I make things so much more difficult than they have to be. It suprises me how simple solutions work where complicated ones dont even.

I don't know exactly why I write in here. I feel the need to say *something* here but then I avoid actually *saying* anything. Because I don't know who reads it, I could set it on friends but then my friends who don't have livejournal can't read it. And other reasons too. But for me it's a way to get all my thoughts out exactly as I want to say it. haha maybe I should stop fighting it and give in.

I'm confused though, I feel like I don't know what's going on since I came back. The amount of time left before we start school again is so tiny. It's not so much sad as just... weird. I don't like just waiting here for things to sort themselves out but I don't feel like I could concentrate on much. I'd clean out my car because that doesn't require much thought but I get dizzy when I walk around and overheated so easily. I dunno though maybe I'll do it anyway. I hope tommorrow's a lot better than today has been.

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think twice [27 Aug 2003|04:20pm]
[ mood | okay ]

Hah strep throat again. But I guess it's not that weird cuz they said a lot of people have been getting sick lately and once you get sick you might have lower resistance. But what's good is I'm getting the medicine earlier than i did last time. My throat doesnt even really hurt that much, not nearly like before. I just feel feverish and lightheaded. The other good thing is this medicine doesnt have to be taken on an empty stomach, the one before i was supposed to wait 4 hours after eating and 1 hour before. I tried to but personally, I don't usually go 5 hours without eating unless I'm asleep especially during the summer cuz i dont usually eat meals.

HAHA and I'm supposed to eat yogurt every day so that I don't become *too* bacteria free. lol. I'm not supposed to see anyone for 24 hours which sucks because I just got back from vacation but at least I'll feel better by then.

My house... constant hammering and things falling off the roof and assorted sounds that are kind of creepy. I'm glad nothing fell on my head when i walked through the door. I wanna take a shower but there are ladders by all the windows and guys climbing up and down. Pulling out of the driveway was also nerve-wracking. I'm still glad to be home though, back where I belong.

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[26 Aug 2003|12:29am]
Hey. I am now in Vancouver and in less than 24 hours I'll be home. 8pm. cool.
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[23 Aug 2003|12:37am]
sign: "made a mistake and need money for a greyhound home"

"hope you all are having fun while my friend is dying"

sign: "recently kicked off welfare, please help me with $18 for somewhere to stay"

"have a nice night everyone" (sincerely)

sign: "everybody needs a little help sometimes"
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[17 Aug 2003|01:30pm]
[ mood | happy ]

Awww! The wedding was so much fun. Tony and Will's dancing was the cutest thing. Congratulations Will! Although it's not like he reads this. The music they played wasn't that great but we figured the 80s stuff was definitely closest to our time. For most of the slow songs only one couple went onto the dance floor. Me and Tony danced to the first and last song along with all the other couples and one other song. The other song we danced to was some song by Journey, so yeah, it was just us on the dance floor and when the song was over he gave me a little kiss and half the room was like AWWWW! and of course so was I. I don't have much time to write though because I have to pack for California and I'm meeting Jenny at the mall at 3:30 or something and picking up Tony probably. After the wedding me and Tony got back to my house at 8 and chilled here. Oh yeah! and he got his hair cut.At first I was like whoa! cuz it was so different but now I'm really used to it after spending all day yesterday with him. It's so cute and I love how it feels all gelled like.

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